As I explained in a previous post, I suffered a great deal from an experience with a rare personality type. I’m alive, thank God, but it’s been a very challenging, depressing and a unique situation. One of those “Murphys Law” moments, which unfortunately, even those who’s earthly jobs are to help us, to protect us, were (and are) overwhelmed and confused.
Essentially it was a “We’re so sorry, we know this is wrong but we have no idea how to help or how to stop it from happening”. I felt lost, hopeless, depressed. Every day became a struggle because the individual wasn’t just trying to hurt me, they were including my family in their attacks. They weren’t a friend, a lover, a relative. It was an almost complete stranger. We shared little in common except for utilizing the same building.
Every day, even now, is a struggle to see hope. Because, I’m that camel and every thing that is normally a mild stresser or annoyance has become the straw. God , I am learning, is the biggest portion of my support system and I have a very good support system (family, church, friends, legal, and medical) I think that we forget how important God is in our lives, especially at our weakest moments.
Sure, we give foxhole prayers but even then, we aren’t giving the whole of our self. When I finally broke down, when I was able to ask my church for prayer support, suddenly wonderful things began happening. My lawyer was suddenly able to get me a restraining order, my husband got a job in an oceanfront town and secured us a waterfront apartment at a shockingly low rate (in a nice area), and I began to slowly see a light as I was digging myself out of this hole. When I put my head in my hands, and broke down sobbing desperatly for God, like a child needing their parent, thats when the connection occurred. Thats when that door opened and I walked through.
I’ve prayed for years. I’ve studied the bible. I’ve been baptized twice and in two different denominations. I’ve even attended temple. Academically, I’m quite sound. My soul however was at the door, but never walking through. I was going through the motions and as smart as I would like to think that I am, I truly was an idiot.
When I broke down, I finally heard him. Psalm 13:4. Now, every day I do my devotionals. I look forward to it, I’m giddy about it. Today’s message, the day before we move to our new town, is one on depression.
I subscribe to a few different devotionals, including Bayless Conleys. Today his message was on Gods prescription for depression.
10 Give your food to the hungry
and care for the homeless.
Then your light will shine
in the dark;
your darkest hour will be
like the noonday sun.
11 The Lord will always guide you
and provide good things to eat
when you are in the desert.
He will make you healthy.
You will be like a garden
that has plenty of water
or like a stream
that never runs dry.
Obviously this isn’t a dis to anyone who takes medication for medical issues. But, as I have learned, you need a holistic approach to dealing with depression. be it temporary, mild, severe, lifetime, from being a victim….etc
You need a good therapist, a good doctor, you need a supportive family, you need good trusted friends, you need hobbies, you need a great church and you need God. (maybe even a good lawyer and some great police officers.)
If you only have one, or a few of those parts, without the whole, you will not wholly heal. Helping others feels good and is a wonderful hobby. (and, it pleases God)
There is science in this. (I told you, there is a connection between science and God. The biggest connection, is in the social sciences.)
Dr. Oz, who at times I find annoying (forgive me God. Thats all me, not him.) claims that by helping others, you can help your health. God, in Isaiah said the same thing!
For those such as myself who expect a peer reviewed source, SCIENTIFIC RESEARCH (*bangs table dramatically*) you have a Psychology professor at UC Riverside “After a rigorous review of research on the therapeutic benefits of positive emotion, Lyubomirsky said, she and her colleagues found widespread support for the notion that people with a tendency toward depression can help themselves by helping others or otherwise introducing positivity into their day-to-day lives.” (http://health.usnews.com/health-news/family-health/brain-and-behavior/articles/2012/01/02/with-depression-helping-others-may-in-turn-help-you?vwo=501cd)
This is “new” research, proving theories on “new” ideas, that as you can see, were also suggestions given by God, in the Bible.
And, on my part, this devotional is exactly what I needed today.
Thank You Father, for providing guidance in all aspects of my life. For knowing just what it is that I need, and for finding ways to remind me that I am valued by You. Amen